who am i anymore?

I keep having these dreams. And they usually involve people i haven't talked to in forever, mostly past classmates who i've disliked for soo long because i was an akward kid and they didn't get it.
And i think in these dreams, i'm letting them go, at least the baggage with their avatars attached.

The other night i had bad dreams and was actually really happy when i woke up because i liked where i was. Just because something that doesn't usually happen, happens, doesn't exactly count as a sign...does it?

I'm feeling like i'm getting ahead of myself. Yeah, that's exactly how i feel. But i don't like the idea of being safe and taking a step back to evaluate everything that's going on. I don't like it because that's not who i want to be. I want to be James Dean, crashing his car...not exactly that, but i mean i want to risk it. You've got to risk it to get the biscuit...right?

It's like 5 am and i'm at work having a melt down and i'm not even sure what i'm melting over.

It's been a really good week, i'm not letting it end like this. F that S for realz. (i used letters because i kind of want to quit cussing, i do it without thinking and then feel ignorant.)

Plan for this week,

1. Eat only fruit because i think fast food's corrupted my body.
2. Work out every day
3. Learn how to change my break pads.
4. Not spend alot of money so i can have enough for Cali in June.
5. Write a happy song for a change.
6. Get Adrienne through her final project so she can come home and celebrate surviving her first semester at art school.
7. Party with everyone i love.
8. Learn more about Taylor Ivory Howell cause she fascinates me.
9. Listen to Anthony D's music.
10. Stay at my grandparent's house.
11. oh and no cussing.

Busy week, not really, lol, it's a busy week of sleeping and going to work. You'd think this stuff would take up more time. Oh well, at least it's not rocket science.